A Return

away for many moons i have been. randomly decide to post again i have.

lots of things have been on my mind lately, so much so that i shan't even bother trying to write with wit and finesse (not that i have been doing that anyway). fussing with such things might mar the overall effect i wanted the following confession to have.

as i said before, lots of things have been on my mind. but much of that cranial activity so to speak has been primarily centered on one thing.
well... one person, actually.
it's insane.
it's painful.
it's impossible.
yet i hope. i hope as i never hoped before.

tell me i'm crazy--crazy to expect someone to care after so many years; crazy to plan a dozen witty things i could say the next time we might cross paths; crazy to often wonder what he's up to, who he's with, whether i've ever crossed his mind even once since then.

nonetheless...
could you tell me i'm not crazy, that such things are possible? could you tell me this world is small enough that we could somehow meet again? could you tell me faithful love in the end is rewarded?

i know, i know. you can't. because the world is an evil [illegitimate child].
no no, i can't say that since the world was created for the good of man. but we do have to be realistic. i should move on. well.
i had my moment with him.
i have my memories.
i have a heart that can love.
for now... i guess that'll have to do.
*sigh*